Full-Blown Agony: My Battle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sharp sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the pain subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned repeatedly that autumn, and again in the spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches often begin with intense pain around a single eye that persists up to three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks usually start with abrupt, severe agony focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in periodic bouts; others have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another discovered 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the simple freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient medical texts suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the disorder note this.

In 1998, researchers published the results of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a physician looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary headache disorders, such as migraine, before diagnosing the disorder. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need much more awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack passed.

National guidelines on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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